Riding High

Mood:

Listening to: Lekota’s I Used To

I was really riding high from that kiss yesterday. Mark even invited me over to spend the night and like an idiot, I said yes without thinking it through. I want to, I really do, I’m just nervous about telling Mum. It’s not that I’m asking for my mother’s permission, however she’s really dependent on me and in my opinion mentally fragile. Oh, and also religious. I knew that if I told her that I was going to Mark’s house to spend the night, she would flip and I’d end up not enjoying the night or the trip to the zoo and it’d be awkward when Vivian and I came home because she feels so “abandoned”. I played the scenario out in my head and unfortunately, Mark gets shat on. I hurt him a lot in this way and I’m sick of doing it. Perhaps I should tell Mum that he and I are in a relationship and so I have to make time for him. He gets over it but eventually, he won’t and his feelings will finally take over.