And There He Was

Mood:

Listening to: Cardi B’s AH HA

I knew it. I knew that once I moved on and found some happiness in a different person and stopped being so obsessed with Mark, he would try to weasel his way back into my life. Mark bared his soul yesterday but after setting him up for an apology and never receiving one, I realized that it’s too late and I’m done with his toxicity. “Am I supposed to keep the door open forever until you come to your senses?” He called those fighting words. His mom isn’t doing so well so I feel bad and don’t want to be an utter bitch to him, but I’m still hurt. And I told him that. The normal human reaction after someone says that you hurt them would be to say “I’m sorry for hurting you”. He didn’t. Multiple set-ups for an apology were dropped. It was more the opposite and I can’t be with someone who doesn’t feel comfortable with me. He’s not comfortable enough to put down his walls and be vulnerable, to share his thoughts. He just explodes and expects me to wait for him to come back with his tail between his legs. “We ain’t finna do that”. I’m being a little more understanding when it comes to him because of his Mum, but he doesn’t want to be romantically involved with me and didn’t disputed it when I told him. I learned more about him last night in his text messages than I have all year. I’m literally shaking my head.