A Sober Milestone!

“Congratulations Megan!

You’ve reached six months of sobriety.

Did you ever think you’d get this far?”

Absolutely not. I was such an awful drinker. It was the first thing on my stomach every day. I would often get the bare minimum done (while drinking) and then pass out, only to wake up two hours later and continue to drink. Sometimes I’d throw up. Sometimes I wouldn’t. It was such an awful way of living and the worse part about it: I’m an adult so no one could stop me. I truly believe that alcohol should be illegal and marijuana should not. Alcohol is so dangerous, from the judgment that’s robbed from you to the inability to think fast or smart to not being able to driver intelligently. I was such a great driver while I was drinking… but was I really? I got two DUIs for cryin’ out loud. Obviously I wasn’t as sneaky as I thought. All of my money, and I do mean ALL of money, went to this “habit”. I stole from my future self just to pay for it. It destroyed relationships, it destroyed job opportunities, it took so much from me yet I kept inviting it into my life, every single day.

Why?

I have the predisposition to drink already. It runs in both sides of my bloodline so the generational curse definitely stuck with me. I witnessed A LOT of drinking in my youth but never really participated. Sometimes it turned violent and screamy, sometimes it just got sleepy. My drinking didn’t really start until I was twenty, twenty-one. I had a few sips before then, like an normal teenager. I didn’t enjoy drinking the beer in Germany during my last summer there, but that’s quite a memory. I even slept over at their house… “they” meaning I don’t recall their names or why I was there but the daughter of my grandfather’s friend was very nice and I remember thinking that their house was very modern for being in Europe. Anyway, this is a milestone. A MILLSTONE!