What Do We Fall?

Mood:

Listening to:

Elephant in the room: I can’t not mention the fact that I failed. I have failed in my sobriety. About four days ago, I took some swigs from Mum’s rum bottle. I think I was just angry and I had finally had enough of dealing with her being drunk, I thought I’d get on her level. I knew where her alcohol was so I just went for it. That was on Tuesday and I haven’t been able to stop since. I’m disappointed in myself but knew that this was inevitable. Mum never gave up drinking and I know that her “sobriety” doesn’t hold me accountable and vice versa. After work yesterday, I bought a pint of whiskey. I don’t know why I’m doing this after two hundred days of sobriety. Obviously I haven’t told anyone, I’m completely ashamed. I haven’t drank at work, but why the fuck not? I think I’ll have a shiftie after work today. Something sweet and bubbly. Today is going to be a long ass shift.