Stuck Between Dread & Excitement

Mood:

Listening to: Wine Glasses clinking

Work today has been dragging. My days off were good though. I finally recovered from the vacation and having to get into focus mode with Mum incapacitated. By Thursday morning though, I was exhausted. Viv got to school late but hey, at least she got there.

I’m so, so excited for this camping trip next week that Mark invited me to. Camping isn’t really my thing but it is when my little family is going. I love being a little family unit with Mark, Vivian, and Jackie. It’s so fun. I only wish it could last longer. He’s asked me to stay until Thursday but I have work on Friday and I’d like a day to decompress with Mum. I’m taking my car up there, and by up there I mean a two hour drive from home, and I’m a little nervous about that. I need some repairs before doing that. Or I can just call out Sunday… I don’t want to be that person. It hasn’t been over ninety days so calling out is out of the question. I didn’t request it off in time and there were already too many time-off requests for that day in particular. I’m just gonna leave from work with my bag packed.

Before all the camping excitement, I have a scary procedure happening on Monday. My cervix is creating some abnormal cells so my doctor suggested burning off the first layer of cells and letting it heal itself so I don’t get cancer. It’s scary in my mind but I don’t want to die of cancer like that so it’s necessary. They sent me anxiety meds to take before the appointment, that’s how you know it’s scary. It takes about 25-30 minutes so I’m really not looking forward to that.