I Woke Up, Eventually

Mood:

Listening to: Rusko’s High (Bassnectar Remix)

It’s been a nice morning. No alarm set, I woke up on my own. I cleared off “the catch-all Chair” and tidied up a bit. I keep coming back to my computer though so I guess I have to blog. Friday was a super long day, as predicted. I think I served three tables in my eight hour shift. So I spent my day looking for things to do. I approached an events person and picked their brain a bit about the job that I had applied for. He did not paint a very good picture of the position so I’m hesitant to pursue it. I just know that I’m capable of so much more than I’m doing. That doesn’t necessarily mean that I should bend over backwards and sideways for a job though. Maybe I should use that strength in my personal life. By strength, I mean managerial skills and ability to handle a lot. I shouldn’t just use that skill when I’m being paid for it. School (for me) is starting in less than a month now and I’m still debating whether to go or not. I still don’t have financial aid and that would be the only way that I’ll go back. I can’t afford to otherwise.

Pay day is Tuesday and I wish it was on Monday. I’m so broke and there’s so much riding on this check, however this check will be missing a weekend so I’m screwed. As long as rent is paid, I don’t care. I’ll figure the rest out. A few years ago, I was working at a place with a guy who is a real freak. Like, really freaky-deaky. I used to be this way too back then, but I’ve since evolved into a person who feels indifferent about sex. Like, I don’t need it all the time anymore. It’s not at the forefront of my mind. Anyway, long story short, he sent me money in hopes that I’d send dirty pictures in return. Big mistake, huge. This really just pissed me off because I’ve been telling him, pleading with him, for the past year, that I’m not into that stuff anymore and that he can stop with the sexually charged texts. He doesn’t care or listen. Also the reason I put my foot down is because he’s involved with someone and I’m not going to be that girl anymore. I deserve Main Bitch vibes, I’m not a side-hoe.