Fly Off

I feel like I’ve been angry for the last two weeks. Since Mark said that we weren’t a couple and he didn’t consider us one, I’ve been on edge and easily irritated. Early this morning, I flipped out because I couldn’t find the honey to give Vivian for her sore throat. She kept coughing and crying, it was a rough night. Thankfully my Mum saved the day and said she would stay with her so we weren’t sending her to school sick. I was so furious though. The littlest things tend to set me off and I hate that, especially when it comes to Vivian. I have to have superhero-like patience with her. I don’t want to be an unpredictable, angry parent. I feel like I had one of those growing up and it’s not a safe space, mentally, to live in.